Slow Fullfillment of the Flowers

Perhaps the moment the eye of the mind is filled with the beauty of natural things, from under a cloud shadow our thoughts emerge and ascend to the open glow of sky.  High above songs of winter birds fall like rain as we receive open hands of air tinted with the lonely blue of distant hills that enriches our blood and nourishes each closed bud alive in its cloak, each thin green bough hidden under cover of brier.

Maybe as the next refreshing wind will lift our hearts even further up from the trodden footpath of cold, hard earth we continue to carefully pick our way around dead ferns, decaying leaves and short grey stalks spiraled with thorns. In spring when hedges thicken green and meadows shine with buttercups, we will enjoy them all the more having traveled the same places when bare and having witnessed the slow fulfillment of the flowers.

This Strange Something

Perhaps something is creeping around the forest waiting to be seen, felt and heard. A strangeness that comes into everything growing. A dim but distinct luminosity that inheres in all.

Maybe this strange something will eventually lodge itself in stars, stars that swell to dawns that burst forth into fountains of gold, rose and purple where birds sing in hidden gardens behind the perfume of trellised vines. Before long a sleek black cat will rise, yawning, and the change will become apparent to our skin, ears and eyes, prepared for almost anything now, and we won't be surprised when news beyond any mind’s guessing comes in a way which can not be easily told since no one knows for certain where it came from, or where it will go.

Moments of Sleep at Night

Perhaps moments of sleep at night are the distances from star to star, as dreams – expressions of the day’s sight, song and sound – weave themselves together and follow each other like fireflies, as if all of this singing, flying and dancing was a job.

Maybe even as we are made to know little of our dreams, they most certainly know us. All through the day they go where we go, move as we move, and are privy to our innermost thoughts. Over time, as we are constantly dreaming – sometimes with open eyes and sometimes with eyes closed – we become as dreams ourselves, vanishing as if dust into a mounting wind, leaving behind no trail. Where can we go to find ourselves again? Such things cannot be easily spoken of.

Resisting Intelligence

Perhaps we are engaged in an endless war that never feels like a war. As our torturers turn affectionate, offering us free Vitamin Water, they whisper, there’s no chance of getting out of this, but we admire your willpower to remain as swollen doors that require strong shoulders to push them open, we really do.

Maybe, as roped and shackled prisoners sweating and suffering, often out of breath, we have cried out every name we can think of to describe that living part of us that has gradually slipped away to the cemetery in an effort to throw them off. Part still-formed twin of the very garden that founded us, we resist becoming the blank glare of a square luminous flux without shadow, the child’s afternoon without the child.

As If

Perhaps once again, the room itself is the “elephant in the room”. Because we cannot see it, cannot put a finger on it, this Here and Now, so fleeting, continues to require and concern us. It is the screened-in porch open year-round.

Maybe as we sit with our cup of melting ice cubes, wincing from yet another loss at the roulette wheel, we continue to risk everything we own. Hour after hour, we are birds circling a full cylinder of sunflower seeds but never landing, searching for that thing we are looking for but cannot name, that thing we would know if only we saw it, that thing that has moved into our bodies and multiplied in every tissue.

This Forgotten Language

Perhaps while sitting in your chair, you simply disappear. Then what would be the point of remaining occupied, always doing something, obsessed with action, if whatever you had done also disappears; if everything you once started and were currently working on was suddenly finished?

Maybe for just a half-second you are not… and then you are again, and the world continues. Your eyes are open, the flower is there. This forgotten language that surrounds you has wide arms to welcome you. All along, it has been awaiting your attention.

Ingenuity is Equal to the Maze

Perhaps the times when nobody is in the landscape are silent and lonely. Yet there are inconsistencies. It is not that there is nothing to say when there is nobody there to say it. This can go on and on… 

Maybe knowing my craft tells me we are not all brave. We may have to trust ourselves. I have had some expectations, and observed that the vast sky did not hinder those small white clouds from flying, but it is no use trying to look on it as a calling, or to look on it as not a calling. Better to let things come and let things go.

Where was I?

Perhaps the mind is a book of lost images – spidery notes written in a wiry hand, a thing to be poured over and decoded –a map without a key or cross. A thing thus pursued by the mind often comes to resemble a dot on the horizon getting smaller and smaller until it is swallowed up by the landscape and only the voice remains - the utterance of a soundless sound.

Maybe as we maneuver these dimly-lit grey corridors of paths near-missing, overlapping but never quite converging, we are only likely to find what we are looking for while looking for something else. It must be there, somewhere. Go back. You will be able to find it if you try, because it is there. It is all there. Just unroll it and, frame by frame, examine the film.

Becoming The Poem

Perhaps once erased a poem can start,  yet how to end while just beginning to question why the light lifts a little earlier today than yesterday as the sun sets over open water, darkening tips of sails and folding closed the wings of open clouds.

Maybe writing is the medium that permits movement after, against, along, amid, through, across, and beyond. Words as protection, as projection - and though my powers are not perfect, this is what I have decided to do with my life just now: I will begin as poet, then slowly become the poem.

Summer's Last Words

Perhaps summer’s last words are still tender on my eardrum. Today her emptiness has put on weight as a new season descends on either side of me, streaked with gold – fiery leaves laden with farewells that speak my name between tall trees and vineyard rows, whispered with a brilliant hissing.

Maybe as I watch the tired bird of her body leaving the land, licking roses of their petals and seeding spring crops of thistle, there is a restlessness to her reddish glow, as if she is late to hear her own slow, sweet song vanishing behind the lit woods. I cut the last leaf of fragrant basil and she is gone. I do not know who has closed the window.

This is Time (guest post by Eihei Dogen)

Perhaps arriving is overwhelmed by arriving, but not by not-arriving. Not arriving is overwhelmed by not-arriving, but not by arriving. Words overwhelm words and see words. Mind overwhelms mind and sees mind.

Maybe overwhelming overwhelms overwhelming and sees overwhelming. Overwhelming is nothing but overwhelming. As overwhelming is caused by you, there is no overwhelming that is separate from you. Thus you go out and meet someone. Someone meets someone. You meet yourself. Going out means going out. This is time.

Time Transfixed

Perhaps it rounds the corner just as you approach, leading you ever onward. You see nothing but its back. It tells you what you want to know, and you reserve the future because of it. You follow it through the daily motions of name, address, date of birth.

Yet maybe while its presence can be easily felt in the long held note of a coyote, you still know nothing about its color. A nothing of a color that persists and persists and persists. And so you will not miss it as it hovers, then disappears, slowed to the point of contemplation. In its place a dazzling golden sunflower whose plucked petals fly one-by-one, lit by bits of sunshine, upward in a sudden swirl of fragrant, cylindrical wind.

One Art

Perhaps a sentence that enters the body through the eye is taking the long road, not a shortcut. And while a page of text is a lovely thing to handle and see in perfect silence, once it begins to speak and sing inside me, I want to know how far it likes to walk.

Maybe words rest on the assumption that language comes out of the mouth. Yet a good sentence fits the entire human body: heart, hands and feet, ankle, knees and elbows as well as tongue. Words wander along the rooted edge of the tight-lipped, light-tipped grass as I forage for a story grown from seed on this quiet summer morning. It is very lonely living with them lost.

A Single Something Finished

Perhaps the idea of life as a single something finished is as fleeting as a whirl of smoke from a winter chimney. One life doesn't follow a single path but many, changing unremittingly over time.

Maybe for some life starts out as a squawking flock of geese flying north, shaped like a flame, that later becomes a crowd combing the beach for diamonds washed to shore from a pirate's loot. For others life begins as an approaching wall of black clouds dissolving into a purple sunset, eventually culminating in a quiet pile of leaves decaying on the back porch.

Between Two Horizons

Perhaps plants grow in the meadow and very high in the mountains that are the front and back of one body. When I gather and eat the seven herbs of spring, my spirit becomes gentle and calm.

Maybe if children eat the insects living in trees, this will cure their violent crying tantrums. Moths, if you shake the powder from their wings first, are very tasty. That is to say, if one accepts what is near at hand, all goes well.

Following the Line

Perhaps a small gleam begins to touch the edge of things. It happens without much fuss. Deer that stand still as trees with their color blending in suddenly become visible as they lift their heads to smell the wet, sweet air that belongs to creeks, trees and clouds.

Maybe the presence of a chickadee on the low branch of a birch, curious and spilling silver notes, flashes in the gentle morning as my eyes follow the soft gray streak of a dove racing over the vineyard toward the afternoon's warmth. I follow along the edge without lifting my attention from the delicate rustle of my stride, as if creating a blind contour drawing from words and wings to keep the line alive.

The Focal Point is Everywhere

another oldie! Enjoy. Hope to post some new poems soon...

Perhaps the steady buzz and whir of insects in the field around me draws my attention to a sparkling flower, no bigger than a snowflake. Moving my eye itself when looking at something that doesn't move deepens my sense of calm.

Maybe, with a simple tilt of my head, a different kind of world is made to appear that says: when too much is still not enough, or is an echo of what is yet to be, I should listen to the insects until I no longer hear them. Last week’s lilacs cast fragrant shadows against the curve of my wrist. Sun-warmed distances to be worshiped without ever knowing.

Translation (a reading with sunbeams)

an oldie but a goodie!

Interior Paramour (collaboration with Wallace Stevens)

Perhaps there is no greater pleasure than to live two hours out of twelve in a different world. It is like love at first sight – if the author is just right. An eye blinks, a muscle shifts, and I am glad to be under the spell. The sky brightens behind the glass, room swirling with the fragrance of my lover’s words like a sweet colored smoke.

Maybe here, now, we forget each other and ourselves. We feel the obscurity of an order, a whole, a knowledge, that which arranged the rendezvous. We think the world imagined is the ultimate good. It is in that thought that we collect ourselves.

www.poets.org/poetsorg/poem/final-soliloquy-interior-paramour

Atlas of Goodbyes #3 (a collaboration with Tess P)

Perhaps it is a small gesture that we practice saying goodbye to you in this way – you are everywhere: postcards, baseball hats, sweatshirts, tote bags, water bottles, coffee cups, Christmas cards and so on… (should I mention bumper stickers?).  Perhaps you will survive some adaptation. Your beauty and that of the frozen landscape is disappearing, a diminishing resource. Today the news of over-crowded, capsized boats on the Mediterranean Sea.  Lost forever, no looking back, a chance taken knowing death was there, willing to barter with life for a just life. How can I speak of both of you? Why?

Maybe as the first soft peach decree of light descends upon what remains of our great decision, its illumination appears small and scattered. We pass by a clearcut forest, and immediately notice the absence of shadow once cast by spreading branches and sprawling, silvery trunks. Sometimes a rush of doves reminds us that the world is a place where mystery does not ask of us to be mistaken for its being. It is as if the tight weave of shiny threads that capture dolphins in the reflective nets of our making tug our attention away from the urgency of the dark stain spreading out from behind the fishing boat, the horizon turning brown.